Herein lies my true story of how I found God in Jesus Christ.
I'm still working on it, so it'll be incomplete. Do check back for updates!
It was near Christmas time in the year 1992. I was invited to help out in singing for a
Christmas event by my then Victoria
School Choir chairman, Victor, in Wesley Methodist
Church. There was a testimony/sharing, I was touched by it, there was an altar call, I
said the sinner's prayer, and voila! I considered myself a Christian. Till
today, I can't remember what the testimony was all about.
Since Victor was in the Singapore
Youth For Christ (SYFC) , I naturally went for Foundation Classes in SYFC. The people were
kind, and I thought I got a good grounding in Christian fundamentals there. I
still remember going to a kindergarten in Kim Keat and sitting down in those
small chairs and studying at a small table. Instrumental
in my Christian upbringing then was Mr Michael Yong
and Dr Hoon Hian Teck. I then helped out in
SYFC in the Serangoon region as a secondary school helper, going down to events.
I then moved on to the Junior
College ministry when I myself went to Nanyang
Junior College, as they lack manpower there. I suppose I
learnt quite a lot there. I remember going to the office then at the Singapore
Bible House in Fort Canning for training.
I was challenged as a Christian in 1993 by an enthusiastic Muslim friend of mine, who then was just back from his Haj in Mecca. He passed me some material by a famous Muslim scholar, Ahmad Deedat. I guess I was pretty disillusioned by his books, and they can be pretty convincing for a shallow and immature faith, which was what I had then. Islam then became rather attractive as a religion to me, and I was seriously contemplating to join it. I was really on the verge of going down to the Islamic Centre of Singapore (which is located near my place) to enquire about the conversion process.
Then came my subscription for Our Daily
Bread, a popular Christian
devotional produced by Radio Bible Class
. Together with that issue, I also received a booklet called "Do Christians believe in Three Gods?"
I guess the booklet simply cleared up all the doubts I had about Christianity. From this
point onwards, I was interested in Christian apologetics, and began reading up on books by
Josh McDowell, a popular Christian
apologist. I also deepened my conviction by reading many other apologetic books.
I began attending Novenas at Novena
Church some time in 1993, under the influence of my father, who also
starting attending a short while before. The sessions were pretty intriguing, as
I saw lots of people praying real hard, close to 2000 per session sometimes, even in the hot and humid weather of
ours. There were also interesting testimonies of people who had their petitions
answered, and Thanksgiving letters sometimes started with "this letter is
long overdue..." and ending with "Your non-Catholic
son/daughter". The sessions last for half an hour, beginning at the stroke
of every hour starting from 8am till 7pm. They take a lunch break at 12pm and
the 3pm session is in Mandarin. I usually go there in the evenings as it
wouldn't be so hot and sunny.
Soon after, I joined the Novena Church youth group, Vine
and Branches (V&B). I spent close to 7 years in this group, seeing it in
its 'highs and lows'. I had lots of fun being there, and learnt quite a few
things about relationships and stuff. Sad to say, there wasn't really a 'push' from the
group for me to become Catholic. In fact, most of them assumed that I was
Catholic.
I got to know quite a lot of good and committed young Catholics there, together
with the usual 'bo-chup' types. The turn-over is extremely high, so many people
walk in and out of the group very often. But there are many benefits of being in
the group, 'coz it being the Novena youth group, e.g., we have priority when it
comes to seating arrangement at the annual Procession. Responsibilities come
with the privileges too, as we had to organise lots of events in Novena Church,
like the family Masses (Exam, Chinese New Year, etc).
The initiative to take a concrete step towards the Catholic faith came from
my mother, who by this time was also attending Novenas. She talked us (me and my
Dad) into
signing up for the Rite of Christian Initiation for Adults (RCIA) at the Church
of the Risen Christ. I thought over it carefully, and decided to take up the
offer. It was probably because I wanted to stick to one church, and not
'church-hop', which a lot of Protestants are doing. And also to figure out what the
Catholic Church was all about. As I only had access to Christian resources
through Protestant bookstores, I went to one popular retail Protestant chain bookstore and
bought whatever books they had on Catholicism. One of the books I bought was
"Protestants
and Catholics: Do They Now Agree?" by John Ankerberg and John Weldon.
This book was full of lies and false accusations leveled at the Catholic Church,
even though it superficially attempts to analyse the 'Evangelicals
and Catholics Together' (ECT) document. I swung to become anti-Catholic consequently,
and began to question the Catholics I know about their practices of 'worshipping
statues', 'praying to Mary' and the like. No one from V&B or RCIA could answer me
satisfactorily, being the 'average ignorant Catholics', so I was smug in my knowing
that 'I was right since no Catholics could prove me wrong'. This is probably
also the attitude of a lot of Protestants anyway. Eventually, I also started
'questioning' Fr Francis Lee, Spiritual Director of the RCIA I was attending. He was more of a
pastor than a theologian, so I wasn't satisfied with his answers too.
A step in the right direction came from my godparents-to-be, Christopher
and Rose Chee. They also bore the brunt of my 'attacks' cordially, and thus
challenged me to find out what the Catholic Church had to say for itself. I
thought, "fair deal", so I went over to the Singapore
Pastoral Institute to borrow the book that was to change my life forever, 'Catholicism
and Fundamentalism' by Karl Keating.
All the anti-Catholic Protestant accusations leveled at the Catholic Church came crumbling in the light of Her Truth and Beauty, as revealed to me through the book. It was like encountering the Lord Himself. I broke down several times while reading it, as I felt so ashamed persecuting our Holy Mother Church, the one and only Church established by our Lord Jesus Christ. It was a moment of God's grace when I resolved to myself to cling on to the our Lord and His Body, the truly one, holy, catholic and apostolic Church. It was with trembling anticipation that I looked forward to my Baptism into His Body, which finally came on the 27th of September 1997.